I was leading on a high value project at work and it ended in disaster. The project failed and as a result, the company I worked for lost a lot of money. I felt devastated and defeated. I started to question my skills, my experience, my judgement and my confidence. I’ve tried to overcome this put on a brave face but I wasn’t able to get back to my normal self.
I had a constant low mood, no motivation. I felt like a total failure. I thought I passed my sell-by date and was of no value.
I lost a lot of trust and credibility. My relationships at home suffered as well. I isolated myself from my family and friends.
I felt angry inside. I felt misunderstood. I suffered with angry outbursts. I couldn’t contain my emotions. I was all over the place.
After two years, I was to attend my first disciplinary meeting due to poor performance.
It was suggested to me that I seek help. I went to see the GP several times because my health started to deteriorate. One day, my wife handed me a business card and that’s how I found out about Dorothy.