11 Mar Are you ready to come back home?
Have you ever had a feeling that something was wrong with you?
Are you putting a lot of effort and energy into your life and work and not achieving the results you want?
Do you feel anxious, stressed, frustrated and tired?
If you do, this is for you.
I am delighted to share the words, the journey and the transformation of one of my recent clients… Take a moment and read.
Cristiane – over to you.
I remember having this feeling ‘something is wrong with me’. I haven’t had clarity and focus to realise what I wanted from work and relationships for many years.
I was putting a lot of effort and energy into all areas above but somehow, I was not seeing the results I thought I should have.
I was feeling increasingly anxious, stressed and tired. I had difficulty to sleep. I was always in a hurry and never had any time. This made me feel very frustrated with myself and others. I had very little patience for anyone and anything and somehow at the same time, I was feeling annoyed with myself for not being able to do so.
It turned my life upside down… in a good way! It opened a different perspective on life, work and relationships.
I now understand how my thinking works in practice and how it affects my experience of life on a daily basis. I realised that I don’t control thoughts, they exist as forms, older, new, collective or not. I have free will to choose which thought I act upon. I realise that I am creating the reality I experience at any given time. I realised that my feelings point to the state of consciousness in the particular moment. I feel with the body. I breathe, I give my feeling space and allow it to go… and flow…
The concept of ‘myself’ has been torn to pieces… in a good way! The realisation of old beliefs that have been in charge of my life has been profound and freeing: I don’t belong, I am not allowed, I am not recognised, I don’t want to be here, I don’t deserve love, I am this, I am that, she, he, they are like that’ and so on. I can laugh now. It seems so simple.
I am getting closer to the reality of who I really am. Love, peace and kindness is always there in everyone. I and others are whole no matter what. I am love and others are love. That is the only true reality now.
I am changing every moment. I am happier, more relaxed, more peaceful. Less thoughts in general, less negative thinking, less reaction, more awareness. I can see when I react from insecurity. I am aware and let it come and go easier, trusting what comes next as a balancing act.
Now I am living HERE not there.
I am aware of stories being created through thinking and as a result I can be much more accepting of myself and others.
I can see that what I experience as external is just a reflection of inside. I notice everyone being kinder to me, everywhere, offering me support. I see my ability to accept and to give from a very different place… a kinder heart. I can see the goodness in people and myself … aspects I ignored or rejected before. I see people and situations as gifts.
I can be curious and welcome perceived challenging situations. I see life…
When I sense inner conflict, I know I need to PAUSE. I know whatever is happening is right for me. Nothing is bad or good. I also know that everyone is going through their own process, so I do not have to save or preach to anybody. I experience others through my own process, so as I change so they do.
I also understood that there is no need to hide. I have realised a deep trust in life. When I see myself in the old story, I know it is the old story. That’s enough to bring me back to here and now. Having been an actor, I know it is a play! I am constantly making up narratives and acting as it goes… but now I see it!
I started writing again. I feel good when I do and I can share it with others.
My relationship with my partner is far more intimate than ever before. People closer to me are noticing my transformation.
If I was to describe the whole process in three simple words… it felt like coming back home …
To me, this is such a beautiful description of what is possible … What do you think? What resonated with you most? What touched you?
If you or anyone you know is experiencing similar issues – please share and get in touch today.
I am looking forward to connecting with you soon,